Man, what a start to the decade, huh?
There are several different ways I’ve described or seen used to describe 2020: The year that lasted a decade, 9 months of March, the year that never seemed to happen, etc. During November there was “From the year that brought you 8 months of March: Welcome to Tuesday, part 4”, which I think 2021 is already trying to top.
The first few months of 2020 feel like they were a different reality now. They don’t feel like they were a part of this past year, but many years ago. There just feels like there is a complete disconnect between pre-covid, and when the lockdowns started. There were events that got cancelled that I completely forgot about, because at the time I though that the lockdowns would take only a few months, then things would be back to normal, and everything could be rescheduled, right? Wrong. It turns out people, Americans specifically, are so selfish they can’t even stay home and wear a fucking mask for a couple months. Nope, haircuts are so much more important! If we’d just done that, we’d be almost back to normal, like Australia is. But no, your right to be a selfish prick is more important that other people’s right to not fucking die apparently.
This last year has really opened people’s eyes to many of the things wrong with our society. Most of capitalism, racism, class inequality, lack of safety nets, the uter selfishness of certain groups of people, the fact that people working from home is in fact possible and will not destroy your business, etc. The trick will be remembering all the lessons, and making sure everyone understands what they mean. I hope we do, things could be much better if we use this time to adjust how we run things.
It is strange though, the world has flipped upside-down, so many people have suffered and even died, but on a personal level? This year has been a time of improvement. I somehow forgot until I was reminded a couple months ago, but I have only been seeing my psychologist since last January. It feels like it’s been much longer, but I think a lot of that has to do with how much the proper medication has improved my life. The proper dosage of sertraline has made me significantly less depressed and anxious, and while I’m still in the process of fine-tuning my Adderall usage, it is already helping me with focusing and productivity. I won’t even detail how much my marijuana usage has improved this past year, but it’s amazing. I feel better than I have in years, and a little hope has returned: perhaps I can actually get and hold a job! I just need everyone to stop looking for senior-level developers only. You can’t get senior developers if you don’t hire junior ones, people! I can’t get the experience you want if nobody hires me! Such a frustrating paradox, that one is.
Speaking of which, post writing break is over, back to the job hunt!
Thanks for reading, and may the Force be with you!